Hating Life!

My internet has been out for about a week, so I haven't been able to post. I've had to go to work a couple times on my days off to do homework, too. I am now working on the last chapter of Chemistry. Yeah! Almost done. I can't wait.
I also have been painting my bedroom. I am a very slow painter, so it is taking me a long time. It probably wouldn't take so long if I didn't keep having to stop to study. That's part of life I guess.
I am just not enjoying anything in life at this time. I have been back to having tears at some point everyday. Not fun at all! I really don't like being alone. I thought I would have Richard to rely on and that he would always be there for my support. He was always my rock since I was 17. So, I am just lost now.
And also on a sad note, my litte surrogate mother across the street passed away on Sunday. Edna has been a great support to me the last few months. I just walked over and talked to her on Friday. It's hard to believe that we won't be seeing her over there working in her yard. I will greatly miss her. Rest in Peace, Edna!