Life Isn't Any Better

Well, my life couldn't be much worse. After 29+ years of marriage, my husband has decided that he needs to "be alone." I don't think it is normal for a 50 year old man to want to be alone. He says maybe after he has "been alone" for a few months, we can "try to get our spark back." I didn't know we had lost it. I have been having a time not crying all of the time for the last few weeks. I feel unwanted, unloved, used, like a dirty piece of trash, etc. You name it and if it isn't good, that is how I feel right now. I have lost 13 pounds in the last few days. I am lost. I love this man so much, he is my life. Has been a part of my every waking moment since I was 17 years old. I am broken. I have no desire to be alone. I have always thought marriage was for a lifetime. Life is turned upside down and doesn't have any meaning right now.

On a brighter note, my oldest son went to Vegas and got married. So, he now has a built in little family. Her name is Elaine and she is from Louisiana. She has 2 little boys. See picture and check out the red hair. My son has red hair, she has red hair and the baby has red hair. How fun is that.

I went to Logan yesterday to help him move out of his apartment. He is moving into hers in Ogden. My boys and I got our picture taken by Elaine (Richie's wife). I have been asking for a family picture for my last 3 birthdays and Christmas'. So, I guess this is a good as it is going to get. Ignore me trying not to cry in the picture.

And last but not least, I am going to being sell some of my dolls. Watch my blog for those.